Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Sometimes You Just Need ...

... to know you are not utterly alone in your path, chosen or otherwise. Sometimes you just need to know about someone who walked as you now walk, and did not fall off into the abyss.

The Pursuit of Beauty
Yitang Zhang solves a pure-math mystery.

“You must have been unhappy.”
He shrugged. “My life is not always easy,” he said.
I am no genius like he is, but I have some faith I'm not completely incompetent even during times when my sense of self-worth is shot.

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Scalable Visions

By itself, this is a large-scale statement of vision from Neil DeGrasse Tyson which is part of the inspiration for Bill Gates' foundation to make a push to try to end world hunger.

Personally, it can also scale down to myself as an individual. My takeaway is this: "You have to be invested in the outcome, that's where change comes from." From that perspective I'll have to remember that a job is good, but I'll need to balance the need to pay the bills against what I'd like to do with my life. Right now, I'm committing to the latter. I'm making that bet that I will achieve what I want. And when I do, the need to pay the bills will not be an issue.

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Update: A Caption Change

I think it is a good time for a small caption change. Nothing has changed where my circumstance is concerned, I am still unemployed and still hoping to find a life/career path that means something dear to me. However I think I am finally ready to begin to leave the trauma behind, and reach out into the future with a little more optimism in my outlook.

So, a good bye to:
"Mostly infrequent random stuff. I've been quite tired the past few years. Am hoping to relax, regroup, and reach out for something better in the near future."
 While I will not look back to this period of my life with any joy, it has been an important chapter nonetheless. It is one during which I was forced to spend a serious amount of time contemplating who I am, and what I'd like to do with my life. That contemplation has yielded some results, and some focus. Life will still be emotionally tough going forward over the next year or so, but I have a path forward that looks promising and is one I feel comfortable with.